Thursday, May 20, 2010


I'm struggling with something, and I don't know how to talk about it. Normally, I would call my best friend to brain storm with her about my problems. But, I can't. You see, the problem is about her. And I just don't know how to talk to her about it.

I feel like we're drifting apart. And I don't know why. I'm afraid I may have unknowingly said or done something to offend her. She's been there for me through so many of my issues, listened to me whine about my problems, and I've been there for her. At least I'd like to think so. I'm worried that maybe I haven't been as good a friend and I thought I was.

And I've told myself all of the reasons I can think of why it's all in my head. That we're not really drifting apart. She's been neck deep in this huge project that she's taken on. She's had some family issues. I know she's stressed and busy. And I shouldn't expect her to take time out of her busy day to pay attention to me. And normally I'm not a jealous person. At all. I understand people have their lives to live, and families, and stuff.

But, I have this pit in my stomach. Deep down, I know there's a rift between us, I just can't seem to put my finger on it. She has been spending a lot of time with a mutual friend of ours. Normally I wouldn't care at all about that. But, somehow, I feel like I've been replaced. When I call her, she doesn't have time to talk. When I offer to help her, she doesn't really have an answer for me. She has stopped calling me. When I call her, she puts me off.

I've thought about bringing it up with her. But, the last thing she needs right now is more drama. So, I'm keeping my doubts to myself.

I am heart broken, and I don't know what to do.

1 comment:

  1. Yikes. Here is what I thought right after reading this. Give it some time. When her life starts to slow down I would totally say something to her about it. If she gets offended and overreacts about the situation then your better off without her. But if she is your best friend she should totally understand where you are coming from. Its not good to keep these feeling trapped inside because it will only make the rift grow bigger between you two.
    Are you close with the mutual friend? Maybe you could drop hints to her and see what she says?
    Good luck :)